Monday madness

You know, marriage is hard. It's not always what you expected it to be, and it certainly doesn't always go the way you would like it to go. That being said: Last night when I was dropping Steve at the airport for his four week long trip; saying goodbye wasn't emotional at all. I was ready for him to leave. It certainly wasn't the way I thought/expected the evening to go. But something came up and I was practically shoving him out the door.

I'm just being real. Sometimes marriage is a covenant. No feelings of sticky gooey love or even like. Just a commitment to see it through to the end. You walk through the not so great times and continue to ask God to give you the great times. I have faith God will deliver us through this eventually too. We've experienced way worse over the years.

To Steve: (who reads my blog every morning when he's out of town) I love you. We'll work this out. But I'm mad and betrayed and upset right now. You've got to give me some space. And I think I'll be ready to talk tonight at my sister's.

To all my friends and family: No worries. We're not on the brink of divorce. We never will be. But you could pray for us. We need your prayers right now. Without airing all of our dirty laundry, I simply ask that you would pray. I'm praying as well. Pray for Steve who is struggling right now. And pray for me who is upset right now. And we'll all pray. And in a month when Steve returns home, I'll have a different story to tell!!!!