commitment

Sometimes that's what gets you through. Commitment. Sometimes it's nothing more. That's how the first day of school was yesterday. It was a mess. I tried to cut costs by getting some of my books used this year and ended up without everything I needed. I also found the manipulative for Isaac to be a disorganized mess. It took me a good 45 minn just to find what I needed for yesterday's lesson. I saw tears running down Steven's cheek one time yesterday. Fourth grade is kind of overwhelming for the guy I think. I was holding baby Anthony all day (which I loved, but it didn't help w/ school any)

So I'm a little more prepared for today. I took some ibuprofen and drank a glass of red last night. I got a good night's sleep. And I've done a little prep work for today's lesson. I'm hoping these things will make the difference.

But it was rough. And sometimes, that's just how things are. They're rough. No easy out. No time out. No home base. Just rough. And you have to remember your commitment and dredge through a long hard day just to go to bed, get up and do it over again. So pray for me. The first couple of weeks are always the hardest. I'm sure things will get better over time.