We're expecting!

We found out yesterday that the staffing for baby Anthony's adoption will be August 26th @ 1 p.m. This will be the day Missouri Division of Family Services decides where Anthony will be placed for adoption. I'm anxious and excited all rolled into one. It's been the longest pregnancy ever (Anthony is 16 months old and we've known him since he was 4 weeks) Yet I'm nervous for the big day. What if something goes wrong? What if we're not chosen? Oh yes, this is just like a pregnancy. I can't sleep at night. I keep wondering if it's too early to decorate the nursery? I don't want to jinks it you know (an old mother to be joke) And so we wait. The day will come, and there is nothing I can do to stop it now. If ever I've gotten this far along in a pregnancy, this is how I've felt. It's odd. I know Anthony would be a REAL part of this family. We wouldn't have to make the puzzle pieces fit. God chose our family long before we ever did. But to actually feel the same way I did when I was pregnant? Okay, I'm not going to the bathroom every five minutes, and I can't blame the belly fat on him. But other than that; it's the same thing! Who knew? I'll be sure to keep you all posted.