I'm feelin' it

We're in the middle of our home study right now. It's stressful. The social worker came to the house this weekend right before the ice began on Saturday. I was so sure she wasn't going to make it, I didn't prepare the way I should have. The house was dirty. Not disgusting or anything, but not as clean as I would have liked it to be. Then she asks for animal records; none of which were on the checklist that we would need to have. So I'm scrambling this week to get the cats to the vet since they haven't had a check up in the past couple of years. Then the kids' doctor called to say they wouldn't fill out the physical unless the boys were seen. And of course, every doctor and vet visit costs money. And all right before Christmas!!!!!!!!! All for a big question mark. Because, as I've said before: there is no guarantee that we will get baby Anthony after all of this. They will choose between all the applicants who they feel is best suited for this child. And we are one family of many who are interested. After all, he is a healthy BABY. So that makes his chances much greater for adoption than other children in foster care. So that's my day. It's my week, actually. And I'm feelin' it. Say a prayer for me. I'd appreciate it.